There has to be a word for this...

I think I experienced almost every emotion in one day. In 24 hours, I felt stung, disappointed, crushed, irate, pissed off, spent, embarrassed, stupid, loving, happy, child like, lucky, doomed, excited, crazy, passionate, comfortable, out of character,defeated, unbelievable, insane, aroused, overwhelmed, content, hopeful, relieved, smug, bewildered, redeemed, upset, rekindled and complete. I need today just to recover.

rant

Boys stink - I feel much better now, thank you.

Lance Bass is gay...

... is this really a newsflash?

The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same

I have had 2 major emotions today from complete opposite ends of the spectrum - and it's not even noon yet! No matter how young or old you are, the 2 things I went through today effect us the same (or I at least believe to be so).
I got scolded by one of my boss' today. And I probably deserved it. But to be scolded - I always feel like the little kid in the corner with her shoulders trying to swallow up her head so no one can see them. I felt like I disappointed them and I hate that feeling. Whether is be from a parent, a boss...Anyone. I hate disappointing people.
Then, like a gift from the heavens, a beautiful flower arrangement was sent to me! I had that great anticipating ping in my heart as my tummy did somersaults. It was a wonderful surprise and a very thoughtful gesture. Flowers always make me happy. It can be a single stem or an overflowing basket - they make me happy. And when they are some of my favorite flowers, I know time and thought went into it.
So I went from bewildered to gleeful in a matter of an hour. Thank goodness it happened in that order.

This is a first...

I have a relationship with an ex-boyfriend. Not a romantic relationship - but a relationship, none the less. If I may dare say so, he and I may be on the road to friendship. This is CRAZY to me! The angst I had against him... and now we can talk to each other civilly - blows my mind.
I've found people who can be friends with their ex as fools. I'm not saying I still don't feel a tinge that way - but time does change things.

My FIRST theatrical review

They mentioned my name - that's HUGE!

Huntington showcase quirky offbeat musical
Theater Review
By Art Thomas

One theme readers of this column are aware of is a push to see shows that you might not be familiar with. The current production at Huntington Playhouse gives that opportunity.
“Sweet Charity” has a book by Neil Simon, and music by Cy Coleman, who writes memorable tunes. Both are “mainstream” artists, yet their musical collaboration “Sweet Charity” has not endured as well as their other works, created separately. It is a shame, because “Sweet Charity” can stand on its own.
Huntington Director Tom Meyrose talks in his directors notes about the references that some younger audience members may not “get” and the difficulty of building multisets because the show has at least 10 locations. Thos are issues, but what makes “Sweet Charity” work is the characters, and Huntington cast fill their shoes quite well.
Beautiful Maggie Gibbons is Charity, a dance-hall girl with a heart of gold. In her first scene she gives cash to every charity that comes her way, despite being pushed into the pond by a boyfriend who took her money.
The Fandango Ballroom, where much of the show is set, is thinly disguised whorehouse where the barrier between dancing and more is slim.
Gibbons dances up a storm with Nicci Cassara’s choreography and has her best dramatic moments in the show’s later scenes with Justin Williams who plays Oscar, the shy guy who just might become her “long-lasting” boyfriend. Williams is a bit more superficial in the Oscar role.
“Sweet Charity” was inspired by a Federico Fellini screenplay, but the influence of master jokester Neil Simon and tunesman Cy Coleman effectively temper what could be a downer of a show. They make it as fluffy and palatable as pancakes with syrup.
In this production, Joe Svhlik is the delightful pompous movie star Vitorrio Vidal, with whom Charity has a fling. Her ballroom buddies, Helene and Nicki, as played by Kathleen Madden – whose goofy expressions make you wonder if she is all there – and Amy Annico. Both exude energy and talent, especially in their trio numbers.
Musically, “Sweet Charity” gave us the memorable “Big Spender” in which the bored, aged, and desperate dance hall girls exhort potential customers.
An audience pleasure in this production is “The Rhythm Of Life”, where tie-dyed hippies link themselves with the energy of the universe – and the mellowing qualities of marijuana. Clearly a lot of the audience was around in the 60’s. Give “Sweet Charity” a chance. It runs through August 6 at Huntington Playhouse is Bay’s Huntington Metroparks Reservation.

Toad & Teets

Who'd have thunk that I'd see so many tits at a Toad the Wet Sprocket concert!?! It was ridiculous! One girl had on the ugliest dress with the sides completely gone and her tits (or tic-tacs) flying everywhere. Then, as we're dancing, we look over at this girl who has on a "shirt" with a huge cut out in the back. Her guy puts his hand through the back and totally feels her up! Hello - I was at a TOAD CONCERT! Not some rockin, hell raisin' concert full of leather - a Toad concert with acoustic guitars and a whole lot of weed (I'm still coming down from my buzz). Wow - what a night.

EXTRA:

Entertainment Weekly Reader Survey:
I listen to music most: in my car
The best album I've purchased in the last 3 months is: Begin To Hope by Regina Spektor
The best album I've purchased in the last 6 months is: Whatever People Say I Am, That's What I'm Not by the Artic Monkeys
The best album I've purchased in the last 12 months:The Essential Johnny Cash
My latest music obsession is: dance remixes
My biggest music obsession is: Still musicals - I have a love/hate relationship with them
The best song from a movie that I've heard in the last 3 months is: Wow, movie.... I can't even think of one. But I will say that the title song from 'Sweet Charity' haunts me daily.

Dork - and proud of it!

So tomorrow evening, I and some friends will be attending the Toad the Wet Sprocket concert. I freakin LOVED them in High School. I think the last time I saw them, I was a sophomore. And it rocked! Hootie and the Blowfish were their opening act. I'm totally pumped - and totally a dork.

Opening Weekend

Opening Night was AMAZING! The show, the cast, the audience, the energy... Simply breath taking. I'm not there this evening and I actually feel like I'm suffering from withdrawal. I cannot express how wonderful this cast is. I am so lucky to be a part of this production.

If you love me at all...

... you will go see 'Sweet Charity' at Huntington Playhouse ( and bring 5 people with you). I am so proud to be a part of this production!
July 12-August 6
'Sweet Charity' Huntington Playhouse 28601 Lake RoadBay Village, Ohio 44140phone: (440) 871 - 8333July 12 - August 6, 2006price: $17.00box office phone: (440) 871-8333
‘Sweet Charity’ is a musical that tells the story of the eternally-optimistic Charity Hope Valentine who works as a taxi dancer in the disreputable Fandango Ballroom. Though every man she meets breaks her heart, she is a true romantic and remains hopeful that she will find true love and escape to something better.With memorable songs like, ‘Big Spender’, ‘If My Friends Could See me Now’ and ‘Baby, Dream Your Dream’, the night is sure to entertain and tickle your funny bone!Directed by Tom MeyroseChoreographed by Nicci Cassara
'Sweet Charity' will run July 12th - August 6th, 2006 at the Huntington Playhouse in Bay Village, Ohio. Directed by Tom Meyrose and choreographed by Nicci Cassara, 'Sweet Charity' is a musical written by Neil Simon with songs by Cy Coleman. Originally done on Broadway by Bob Fosse, this musical is full of heart, rhythm and fun!

A - Available: yes A - Age: 28
A - Annoyances: rude people and people that lick their teeth
B - Best Friend: (s) Magdalyn, Cheryl, Kochy & Amy
B - Beer: Honey Brown, Miller Lite and Stella's
B - Birthday: March 2nd
C - Crush: no one in particular, but i fancy Johnny Depp
C - Car: silver jetta
C - Candy: Heath bars and candy corn
D - Day or night: night
D - Dream Car: Audi Quattro
D - Dog or cat: both
E - Easiest person to talk to: Cheryl
E -Eggs: dyed
E - Email: uswa48u@aol.com
F - Favorite Month: October
F - Favorite color(s): orange, silver & pink
F - Favorite Memory: June 18, 1996 at Huntington Beach
G - Gummy Bears or Worms: bears
G - Giver or taker: giver
G - Gum: Extra watermelon
H - Hair Color: clove (that's what it says on the box)
H - Height: 5'4 & 1/2
H - Happy: birthday 3/2/78
I - Ice Cream: Black raspberry chip and lime swirl
I - Instrument: I can't play any - but i adore the mandolin
I Idol: Gene Kelly & my mom
J - Jewelry: silver & colorful stones
J Job: 3 at the moment
J - Jail: not yet
K - Kids: hopefully someday
K - Kickboxing or karate: kickboxing by Kochy
K - Kindergarten: alphabet circle
L - Longest Car Ride: oh - Virginia beach
L - Longest phone conversation: five hours
L - Last Kiss: been too long

M - Milk Flavor: strawberry
M - Most missed person: Melinda & Smack
M - Movie Last Watched: Willy Wonka
N - Number of Siblings: none
N - Number of Tattoos: none
N - Name: Nicci or Niachi
O - One Wish: go to europe
O - One Fear: drowning
O - One regret: ummm.... never going over seas
P - Pet Peeves: wet socks and people who use the word ain't
P - Part of your body you like best: my eyes
P - Part of your personality you like best: dry sense of humor
Q - Quote: "Stand for something you'd fall for"
Q - Quillows or comforter: comforter
Q - Quick or Slow: depends
R - Reasons to cry: loss of a loved one, being trapped by clowns
R - Reason to smile: courtesy, my goddaughter
R - Rain or shine: a little of both - makes a rainbow
S - Song Last Heard: "On the Radio" by Regina Spektor
S - Season: Autumn
S - Shoe: my pink velvet high heels with cute little bows
T - Time you woke: 8:00am
T - Time Now: 3:30pm
T - Time for bed: 2am
U - U love someone: Lucy kitty
U - Unpredictable: occasionally
U - Underwear: commando
V - Vegetable you hate: brussel sprouts
V - Vegetable you love: artichokes and asparagus
V - Vacation spot: i'm going to west palm beach next month!
W- Worst Habit: teeth grinding, dirty mouth, bite the skin around my nails
W- Where are you going to travel next: See last V answer
W- Weather right now: warm, sunny, not a cloud in the sky
X - X-Rays: teeth, head, spine and feet
X - X-Rated Porn: Edward Penishands
X - X-tra special someone: alf
Y - Year you were born: 1978
Y - Year it is now: 2006
Y - Yellow: snow
Z - Zoo Animal: sea lions
Z - Zodiac Sign: Pisces
Z - Zoolander: Wil Ferrel's hair

Firsts

1. Who was your first prom date? Mick Hirsch
2. Who was your first roommate? Lucy
3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time? I think it was beer and schnapps.
4. What was your first job? Pretty much like every other American girl, babysitting.
5. What was your first car? Conan - '91 Buick Skylark in cranberry red
6. When did you go to your first funeral? Young. Maybe 5
7. How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown? Funny
8. Who was your first grade teacher? Mrs. Fern
9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane? Las Vegas - classy!
10. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with? Never snuck out.
11. Who was your first Best Friend and are you still friends with them? Brittany Lawson. She was my neighbor. I have no idea what ever happened to her. She moved away when I was 7.
12. Where was your first sleepover? Maybe Megan Daily's house?
13. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? Usually Cheryl - she can cheer me up.
14. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsmen? I was a bridesmaid in Amy's wedding. Fun time!
15. What is the first thing you do in the morning? Besides hit the snooze? I always have to pee.
16. What was the first concert you ever went to?The Monkees Reunion Tour
17. First tattoo or piercing? My ears when I was 4
18. First celebrity crush? I've always been ga-ga for boys. Honestly, I think I had the hots for Elvis.
19. Age of first real kiss? 14
20. First crush? Again, many crushes. A boy names Timmy in Pre-school
21. First love? See Number One